NICU

I was moved to Women's Care and the pediatrician came in to update us on Luke. He was first put under an oxygen hood and when his oxygen sats were still too low, he was then put on a CPAP machine. That's when I got to see him for the first time. Our poor little boy (who at this point did not have a name other than Little Chief) was laying on this very cold looking bed, wearing only a diaper, and struggling to breathe. His chest was still retracting and he just looked so bad that I couldn't help but cry. It was so hard to see him and feel like I couldn't do anything to help him. Christopher was awesome though. He didn't seem too overwhelmed by the machines as I was and he just was able to keep it together. I was the strong one when I was in labor but he was the rock now.
Then I went back to my room since I was feeling very useless and overwhelmed. The pediatrician came in to tell us that he was not improving and had to be intibated and put on blood pressure medication because it was too low. They transferred care to the Neonatologist at the hospital because it was too much for them to handle and keep coming back.